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Hey There, Hi There, Ho There

OMGlob, I’m alive!  Yes, it has been a LONG time since I’ve posted last.  I’ve just simply allowed myself to not feel bad about not posting.

  I have a life, yo!  Not saying that people that have the time to post don’t.  You’re just probably better at time management than I am.  I just can’t find the time to do it, and that’s ok.

  There is and isn’t really anything to post on anyway.  He’s a normal baby doing normal baby stuff, and I think it’s just a little too mundane to go on and on about.  Hopefully if anything interesting does happen, I’ll let you know.

  I made this blog to help get through our infertility.  It’s not that we’re cured or that we won’t go through it again.  I’m just not in that place right now.  Not that I’m not reading and still with my sisters still in the trenches.

  I just won’t be posting much probably until we decide to go for number 2.  Which is still a year off.  I’ll keep the blog up though because I know it helps others to read.  I see “morula pregnancy” searched for all the time.  I hope my story can give them hope that they will have their own take home baby from a morula egg.

  So what’s happened since Easter?  Well, here’s a quick run down:

– I flew alone with Little J to Cincy for a week around the Memorial Day Weekend.  I was a worried mess before, but he was the perfect little flyer.  We had a lot of fun with family, but there was a little too much packed into one week.  On the way back we got stranded in Dallas at 12 am, and the Hubs had to make the 6 hour round trip from Austin and back to get us.


Little J and I got to walk the field at the Great American Ball Park for his very first professional baseball game!

– Once we got back from Cincy, Little J finally started crawling.  I don’t know why I was ever worried about him being a late crawler as now he is getting into EVERYTHING!  He’s not too quick as it’s still and army crawl.

– We started swim lessons at the YMCA.  He was very clingy to me the first day, but now he’s the happiest baby in class.  He loves the water!

– I’m pretty sure he’s starting to teeth the top teeth.  He’s been gnawing on everything, and has been a lot fussier.

– Solids are going along just fine.  He likes everything I give him, and he’s finally starting to chew things and understand texture.

– I’m already getting weepy about his year birthday quick approaching.  I see it already that my baby is turning into a toddler.  I’m excited for him, but since I don’t know if I will ever have a baby again it makes me sad.

– I’m also nervous about weaning.  It may be selfish, but I’m ready to have my body back.  I’m really proud that I nursed my baby a full year.  The thing is though, this kid LOVES the boob, and I know this will not be an easy thing to do at all.  I’m not even really sure how to do it.  I’ve got a lot of researching to do.

  Well, that’s about it.  I’ll upload the month photos onto their respective page.  I hope you all are well, and I’ll see you around!

Happy Easter

Although we don’t celebrate the religious side of today, we are happy to wish our friends, family, and other believers a very Happy Easter.  Also, a  Happy Passover to our friends of the Jewish faith.

We are excited for the arrival of spring, and as an infertile Easter means something a little different to us.  Some believe that the ancient origins of Easter and some traditions come from Eostre, an Anglo Saxon goddess of spring and fertility.  So no matter what you celebrate today, we hope it brings you great fertile things this year!

Happy Bunny Day!

Happy Bunny Day!

8 Months Old

2/3 of a year gone.  It’s going by so fast.  I’m so blessed to be able to be a SAHM and not miss a minute of it.

As much as part of me doesn’t want him to grow up, every day is an exciting new adventure.  I can’t wait to see what he does next.

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Concerning Geeks

I really do have a love/hate relationship with this blog.

I love that I get to get my thoughts out, and let’s be honest brag about my beautiful baby.

I honestly though hate the time and care it needs.  It’s like a baby itself, and there’s just not enough of me to go around.  I think so too because I just don’t know what to do with it sometimes.  Like the direction I want to go with it.

Before it was about my experience through infertility.  Not that that is completely over with, but it’s just on the back burner right now.  I first imagined it being about my experience as a new mother, but I really just had no time to blog about it because I was living it.  Then it kind of just became about small updates about hitting milestones and so forth, but I think that that is just boring.  Not for family or friends keeping up with us, but for the general public, snooze…..

Little was about me and how I was feeling or thinking.  Partly because in the first four months I was in strict survival mode.  Just trying to get me, my baby, and my family through one day at a time without any of us breaking down.

Slowly but surely we’ve gotten into a routine, and things are becoming the new normal.  Now the thoughts are creeping into my head of, so who am I now?

I hate the idea of new moms “losing themselves” or who they used to be.  I haven’t lost who I was before, but life has changed as it always will do.  I just have to figure out how the essence of me fits into this new environment.  I guess it just can seem overwhelming when the environment is so very different.

Sometimes I wish we were closer to our friends and family.  Raising a baby has got to be so much easier with a village to help.  Pop over to Grandma’s to watch the baby a bit while the hubs and I catch a movie.  Go have coffee with a friend on a nice afternoon.  I know I could find a babysitter, but after reading too many horror stories on the internet of people hitting, raping, or killing babies they were left to sit I doubt I’ll ever allow someone not super close to me to watch my baby.

I don’t want it to sound like complaining though because this is what we chose, and I am truly happy with where we are.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE the city we live in.  Everything that we have access to, and the mindset of the people who live here make it feel like we really belong.  Its just a double edged sword with the timing of everything I guess.

We only moved here three years ago, and we really didn’t make too many friends when we first settled.  If we had though, would we still be friends?  Kids change things.  No single couple really wants to hang out with a family, and no family really wants to hang out with singles.  There’s nothing wrong with the two sets of people, but it just really doesn’t work.

Ok, so now that we’re out of the fog of the newborn stage and ready to interact with the outside world again, where do you go?  How do you make friends as a new parent in a new city? Then most importantly, how do you find friends you actually like?  Because no two moms are exactly alike.

I did join a Tiny Tykes class at a local children’s gym, and although I think it’s been a great experience for baby J it’s not really been helpful on the adult socializing front.  First of all because the turn over rate for his age is high.  I haven’t found any mother that started their baby as young as I did with J, so most of the other kids we started with a couple of months ago have already moved to another class.  I can move to a mixed age class, but I just think it would be too much for him.  He would get lost in all the other bigger kids running around.  He still isn’t even crawling yet (more on that later).

Second is that I haven’t clicked with any of the other mothers.  They’re nice.  It’s just hard to find another set of parents that are liberal atheist/agnostics who are going to go to a Comic Con over a marathon, who baby wear, didn’t circumcise,  make their own baby food but are going to vaccinate their kid and let them CIO, who will play on your co-ed softball team but have no idea or care who’s in the playoffs in any sport, and who may know more about celebrity gossip than she likes to admit but will not join in on whatever crazy diet plan they’re all on?  Where can I find those parents?  Even if you’re not exactly like that, at least a couple that would be cool with a couple like us?  Craiglist ad?  Is there an app for that?

So I guess I do know who I am, but I just need to find my village.  I know they’re here.  I just don’t know where to look.


Well, in catching up with baby other news:

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St Paddy’s Day was fun….





and he looked oh so cute in his six month photo shoot….


09532420130320_0011He wasn’t really thrilled by the Easter Bunny though…

We’ve been trucking right along with things like eating.  He loves his veggies (especially if they taste like dirt), but will really only eat fruits if they are mixed in oatmeal or yogurt.  I still need to try meats, and he still doesn’t seem interested in any food he has to chew.  Puffs are more fun to feed to the dogs than to put in his own mouth.

Although I’m not sure why as his two bottom teeth have started to come in.  He’s taken quite a few nips of the tits, but I can usually catch him before it starts.

He mastered sitting unassisted rather quickly, but this kid has no interest in crawling or pulling up on things.  I’ve tried everything they tell you to try.  Having his toys out of reach, putting a towel under his hips, and so on.  He gets frustrated rather quickly, puts his face in the ground, and cries.  I know that he’ll do it in his own time, but you can’t help but want them to catch up to their peers.

He does now say, “mamamama” and a few other babble words.  Hmmm, what else, what else….  His sleep is good.  He can have bad days, but he’s usually a great sleeper.  He only wakes up about once a night to nurse.

I worry sometimes about my milk supply, but he doesn’t seem upset at the breast ever.  So I guess it’s fine.  His little tummy and chubby thighs suggest that he’s getting enough to eat.  He just went into his 9 month clothes, although some pants are still too long for him.  Poor kid is not going to be very tall.

I guess that’s it for now.  Tomorrow my baby turns 8 months old.  So look out for a basket picture!


Memorable Moment Monday

Hey, long time no see!  Ugh, looks like life got the better of me again.  We were all horribly sick for a good two weeks in late February, and then my mother was here in early March, and then WTF it’s almost April?!?  Sigh, blogging fail…..

I’ll catch up soon, I swear :D…….

Until then, in true geeky fashion, our Memorable Monday Moment is…..

Tolkien Reading Day!

Because it’s never too early to go on an adventure!


Monday Snapshot

Little J has had a cold for a week and a half now.  I know you just have to let these things take their course, but today he woke up with his eyes gunked shut.


We decided to go to the doctor.  He has a cold, pink eye, and an ear infection.  Poor Boo.

How Do I Love Thee?

Let me count the ways.

My DH:

1.  Since the day I met you, you have made me laugh each and every day.  Even days I’m sad or mad.

2.  You work hard to provide for your family, and you are the greatest husband and father.

3.  You are everything I could want in a man.  My hope for my son is that he grows up to be just like his Daddy.

4.  You love me for exactly who I am, unconditionally.

5.  You have given me everything I could ever have dreamed of to have in life.  I am truly happy, and it’s because of you.  I could not have this with anyone else.

My Little J:

1.  I love your laugh, your smile, the way you nurse, the way you throw your whole body forward when you see something that interests you.  I love every inch of you.

2.  You made me a healthier, better person, and inspire me to be a little better every day.

3.  You made the idea and understanding of what family is so much more to me.

4.  Love is on a whole other level that you will not even begin to understand until you have your own children.  Thank you for allowing me to experience it.

5.  You made me a Mommy, and all of us a family.